Guilt....

I dont always write about my personal life but it seems more recently I have been feeling more and more guilty. Being my moms only daughter and being a lesbian I keep getting the feeling like im letting her down in someway. Like shes never gonna see me marry and me and my partner will never be able to have the same child. Maybe its cause she freaked out over me touching my girlfriends hand or the fact that my grandmothers coming over from england and she is definetly not ok with it and Im really scared its gonna come up. I dont want to lose her in my family. I love her to much for that. *sigh* I guess I just dont know what to do. will this guilt go away? i guess I'll have to see.